Christmas time is a wonderful time. It has been my favorite time of year as long as I can remember. I love it all – the decorating of the house, baking, spending time with family, shopping for gifts and carefully wrapping them with love. I learned how to make bows from my mom and I love doing it. I have used the same ornaments that were on my tree as a young girl – ornaments that my grandmother handmade. Traditions – that’s where it’s at!
The last 2 Christmases have begun to change however. I have lost both my parents now (my dad passed away the year before on Christmas Day). I have married and moved to another city. My sister has married and bought a winter home in Colorado. I got to see her last year after Christmas. This year I won’t see her at all. Our “traditional” Christmas Eve celebration is gone. Our “traditional” Christmas Day celebration is gone. As a matter of fact, my husband and I will be alone this Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. Wow, how things change. It’s been a VERY hard transition for me this year. I’ve missed my Mother and Father tremendously this year.
Now, I realize that it is my turn to make traditions. I feel a little lost. I’ve had one idea for the last 2 years that hasn’t happened yet because we are all too busy. I think there may be something wrong with that. I find myself searching my heart to decide what REALLY matters to me and my family. How can I create a spirit of Christmas love to my family wherever they are, whether I actually see them during Christmas or not. I know it isn’t in the gifts. As a matter of fact, I’m considering not doing gifts for Christmas anymore. Instead, whoever is with my during Christmas going to a soup kitchen and serving Christmas dinner or visiting a nursing home and bringing cheer to someone whose family isn’t around.
In the meantime, I am learning new lessons about expressing love to my friends and family and remembering and honoring the traditions of the past to the best of my ability. And, then I will pass that ability onto my daughter.